Happy New Year!!

Welcome, 2012!!

Happy 21st birthday to two of my BEST friends in the entire world!! So excited to spend the day with them.

I am so thankful for all the people in my life. I have the best boyfriend. He is so appreciative and loving. Good people like him are one in a million. My friends and family are great too. I'm glad I get to spend quality time with them during break.<3

Cheers to the New Year.

Full Circle

12 months have passed and once again we're back in Eventful November. Robert's birthday and our Anniversary are only a few short days away. I can't wait! Maybe we will be able to travel a little together. That would be lovely. :)

I am currently interning in Irvine at a government finance bank. Sounds exciting...i know. Haha, but I really do enjoy it. I'm also really happy that I've had the opportunity to volunteer more this semester. Everytime I leave the Children's Home I volunteer at, I'm in a great mood. The kids there are so nice, and I love to make them smile. It reminds me about how lucky I truly am, even if at times I may not always feel lucky.

Welcome September!

Time to start layering, studying, planning.....

What should I be for Halloween??? Hmmm...maybe it's a bit too early.

I'm so excited. I have big plans for this semester. By this time next year, my resume is going to be kicking ass again. I'm sure of it. I'm definitely glad that I decided to really focus on school and myself in general this semester. I usually just throw myself into work and a ton of classes and end up being disappointed in the end. This year will be different. I'm going to stop trying to be so grown up and start acting like a full-time student. I'm still planning on over-achieving...I'm just going to take a smarter approach. :)

I truly believe that you get what you settle for. If you're not happy with your current job, relationship, school, friends, and etc. it really is your own fault. We all have the ability to control our own happiness. We can turn a seemingly bad situation into a pleasant one, or we could also just leave the negativity behind. I am not ashamed to say that there are many aspects of my life that I would like to improve. At least I'm doing something about it. :)

I've been pretty involved in the dance/modeling industry recently. It's certainly not what one would expect it to be. The one thing I can say is that I met some really great people out of it, and for that, I am grateful. This is only a hobby of mine though, so for those who care, I am not losing sight of my dreams! I have much bigger goals than to just walk around in a bikini my whole life. Gross, haha. At least I can say I'm pretty experienced now. I have a nice portfolio as well as excellent references. All of this is pretty pointless, but the experience was fun. I think I am going to start toning down all the dancing and modeling gigs though. I don't love how people are responding to it. Plus, like I said in my previous post from a few months ago, nightlife just isn't for me. I'm not really into clubbing or getting shitfaced at a bar. It's just not my thing. I would much rather have full control of my actions. I guess that was part of the reason I got into this in the first place. This way, I could be a big part of the party...without actually having to party....and get paid too! Does that make sense? Probably not, but if you know me well...then you know what I mean. ;)

happy mother's day!

got a new tattoo yesterday! woohoo...finally!

not gonna lie, that shit hurt A LOT. at times, i was freaking out and gripping robert's hand so hard, that i'm pretty sure it cut off his circulation. when they went over my ribs, i heard the needle's buzzing sound in my head! BLEH! i'm embarassed at how much of a wimp i was. I guess my high tolerance for pain has expired. i'm actually still very sore.

LOVE that robert was there for me the whole time. the entire process took approx. 9 hours. we were there from 3pm - 12pm. RIDICULOUS!! i was under the needle for 5 hours. even more ridiculous, since i thought that what i had wanted would only take a couple hours. i forgot that they had to outline every individual letter though, and when i came to realization that it would take a long time, i had a major "FML." moment. poor rob. i was seriously getting crazy on him when i was in a lot of pain, and i think he was in a helpless situation. ah, well, i'm glad it's over with. it was an experience i hope i never have to go through again. i will plan my tattoos in more painless areas now. i'm just thankful that no one took pictures during the process O___O..

dyed my hair flaming red too! much brighter than ever before, and i didn't even have to bleach it. i'm pretty excited about it. i'm not quite adjusted to it yet, so whenever people comment on it, i tend to say, "yeah, i look like ronald mcdonald.."..

i got asked to model over for KandyShop Bikinis last week too! it was really fun, and i met a lot of cool people. we went to the grand opening of Club Visionz in West Co on a partybus and the whole night was filmed for a reality show pilot! i can definately say that there has never been a longer period of time that i was in a bikini and heels for. my feet were killing me by the end of the night, and it didn't help that the club didn't allow for us to take our shoes off.but it was fun, i was glad when the night was over, 'cuz i realized that there was reason that i didn't go out much anymore. that whole party scene just isn't for me. :) at least i made some good friends and got a sweet bikini out of the whole experience.

school is almost over. THANK GOODNESS. i didn't do as well as i had hoped this semester, but at least i'm doing really well in a few classes. sigh, where did my motivation go? and work is alright. the new job is demanding at times, but i'm getting by. i was lucky enough to have some really wonderful coworkers. :) everyone is really helpful and kind. all young, but wise & mature beyond their years (which is the best). sometimes i feel like the baby of the bunch, but i learn a lot. unfortunately, i believe that some people are a bit unethical at work.....as much as i'd like to say more, there is only so much i can vent about on the internet, for it is accessible by all..

PLUS, i pretty much added all my favorite new coworkers on facebook, so I MUST BE CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT I POST! ;)

New Year, New Me?

I've been eating out too much. I need to go the gym!

My new job at the Bank starts this upcoming month along with a new semester at school. 19 units, bring it on. LESS GO!!

I never thought people actually checked my blog.

...until my friends told me they did! ha ha!

now i feel bad about updated random ish once a month. I suppose I'll try and use it more often.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2011. no more double 00's.

I hope this year is 10x better than '10. let's make it happen!

right now, i'm still in school (intersession) and it's not too bad, and my winter break has been eventful. i honestly wish i could do more, but i guess everyone's growing up and spare time is hard to come by these days. At least Spring doesn't start for a couple more weeks!

Merry Christmas!

Yay! What a wonderful holiday.

I hope to spend lots of time with my family.

It's been a good break, but I can't help but still be stressed about school. I really need to get my butt into gear. I'm kinda disappointed in myself. I know I could do better! I'm gonna have to take every winter & summer class I can get my hands on. I know I can do it. :)

My family already opened their presents. Lots of stuff for Nikita, but I got a couple great things myself. I'm very excited for this upcoming year.