shawwwwwtayyy!

:)
manda panda
maggiepeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

fires suck ass. they ruined all my plans.

i definately think

people are SO unappreciative.
FUCK.



dude, i've been grumpy all fucking weeek.

so,

the other day this stupid car crashed into my moms while she was taking me to school. and now, the car's gone, we have to take him to court, & i have to go to the doctors every freakn' day.
GAYYYYYYYYYYYY.

anyways, i've been missing school and it SUCKS. i know that once i return, teachers are going to shove work into my face like no tomorrow. & i know kleibacher's gonna be on my ass for not turning in my country report.
SHITFUCK, ha.

yo know what's been kinda cool? i've been strengthening a lot of my relationships. my bestfriends are the best, & have me happier than ever! i'm friends again with old friends and life is drama-free for the most part. everyone is chill, 'cuz senior year is chill. &i treat people the way i wanna treat people, because i don't care if you don't like me. i won't remember your name in a few years anyways. but the new people in my life and cool as fuck. &that means my future's bright.
this is how life always should be, in terms of relationships.

shoot, but guys are a different story.
no doubt, i'm picky. but there are some guys out there that can make my heart flutter.
i think that some things are just meant to be, ya know? like, i don't know why i always fall for the ones that are totally wrong for me. the relationships that can never work out. i think fate is playing a game with me. each time, watching me chase my way into a dead end. idk. it's my fault, really. but i think that people have chemistry for a reason, ya know? &that everything deserves a chance.

i had

so much fun with brandon and xtines.
we love going to "..." and hanging out.
it's our secret place now.
NUNYA BUSINESS WHERE ITS AT!
JUST KNOW IT'S FUCKING FAR!



:)
HAHAHA

whens the last time

that you were truly happy?



freshman year.


sophomore year.


junior year.

senior year.

im keeping these pics here cuz i just took em off my myspace. they were taking up too much room & i already have pics of these girls on my page. :)

you know what i think?

i think that when you say you're intelligent, you're really not. especially when you tell others that you are.
&that true intelligence is knowing what you don't know.

i think when people get power hungry, they lose friends.
&in the end, they'll get rich, marry someone gorgeous, &lose all their money through divorce attorneys.

i'm pretty sure that when you read other people's mail, it's illegal.

i think that when you have a solid group of friends you can trust and go to for anything, you're set for life. &you should value their friendship despite whatever prior disputes that have occured.

i think that when you make an effort, it shows.
& it really impresses people when you do. or maybe it'll just surprise them. who knows?

i think being loyal is crucial to any relationship, professional or personal. trust is hard to gain.

i think that when people are nice to each other, it makes the world easier to live in.
but i also think it's really fun to be mean sometimes.



but that's just what i think. :)

PEOPLE

are such dicks.

hmmm,

nothing too much to say.

so this weekend was chill i suppose. worked a bit, but i got quite a few visitors! they make me happy.
friday - work. then xtines house to catch up.
saturday - SAT's. work. then hung out with ashley and xtines & etc.
sunday - work. hung out with tim on my break. and that's pretty much it!
i kind of wanna go to knott's...KINDA! last year was kinda a bad experience...stupid girl drama. but i still had fun! i think you have the most fun the first year you go.maybe i'll give it another shot! we'll see who i go with.

i like having a date to hold onto. nawmean? haha.

oops!

i forgot to blog. haha, okay, well, the month of september was pretty eventful.
lots of lessons learned. lots of fun had.

homecoming was a blast, but it was still unmemorable for a senior homecoming. :(
bummmer.
now, all i want to do is go to knotts with some friends.
i got a new phone. yaaaaaaaay! finally. &my mom paid me back. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

the vma's were AMAZING too.
i met some kick ass people.

i also got to get back in touch with some old friends, which is always nice. to be completely honest, rekindling old flames, thinking of the past and everything has been great fun. kind of an eye opener. idk, i just feel good about finally understanding things that had bothered me for so long.

&today, during math, i was thinking of my friend/ex-bff/ex-bf shayne. i remember TWO years ago, he told me something i DEFINATELY did not want to hear. i got sooo pissed, haha. it was mean and hurtful, but now that stories have been explained, i finally get where he was coming from & think that he was just trying to protect me. OR, he was just being a jerk. haha i think it was the latter. just kidding. :)
either way, i appreciate it. 'cuz he was right.

too bad it took a few years for me to realize. :/ haha.

haa....

i have SO MUCH to say,
i don't even know where to start.

you know what?
THIS IS AFUCKING SMALL WORLD.
haha.


wow.
i hated the world like...10 minutes ago.
now, i just want to talk to someone.

exhausted.

i really hate how my schedule is so fucked up.
i;d appreciate a little effort from our counselors.
i know they're working, but....nothings been done! :(

i hate it.
i'm stuck in classes that i know i won't even end up in! ugh.

&i'm sick of people who are so selfish. people who are nice just when it's convenient for them to be.
lamelamelame. fuck you!
haha :)

OMG
GUESS WHO GOT VMA TICKETS?
WOOO

AH!

WHO AM I GOING TO HOMECOMING WITH. :(

all i know is

i dont know if i'm ANNOYED with people, or if it's just me being my moody self.

all i know is that my best friends make me feel so good.

i love being around them &spending time with them, because all my problems disappear for a while. &for a girl at seventeen, it's nice to have somewhere to go and people to turn to when you need it. right now, i'm just trying to blank out all bad thoughts and just focus on school & keeping myself healthy & fit by going to the gym as often as i can with ashley. it's working alright, but i'm definately not looking forward to when reality catches up with me.

when that happens, you can count on me blogging.

don't even.

school. fcuk you.
i don't even miss you. i used to kind of look forward to starting school cuz i get to see all my friends....but this year...i REALLY do NOT want to go back. if i miss you....i'll probably call you and we'd hang out. like, everyone i really want to spend time with...i already have, and i can spend time with them anytime i want cuz all i have to do is pick up the phone.

but god, school is ridiculous. my schedule is so messed up. AS USUAL. whatever.
at least it's senior year. it should be fun, right?
work has been freakin' exhausting too. AH.

holler fo a dolla

on the phone with cielo "pillow".
lots to discuss.

marshmallows?

so today, i drove down to chino hills to meet up with maggie & manda. it's m&m. like miley and mandy.

but better.
anyways, i saw the end of "jumper" at amandas while she explained the storyline to me. i really like the movie! :) manda couldn't go out 'cuz of stupid curfew rules, unfortunately, so me and mags did a starbucks run & headed over with some taco bell and visited joe and his friends at prado park, where they were camping.
it was pretty chill. it would've been better but right when i got out of the car i stepped on wet grass and my feet were cold all night.
haha

yesterday was fun i guess.
i went to buffalo wild wings (BWsquared) twice. HAHA! once with pj, mags, &manda after registration..and once after work with jenny, cielo, loren, and cheryl. real fun. we stayed til like 1:20? or something. haha
btw, registration was really gay. it made me dread school EVEN MORE. i didn't know that was possible. they wouldn't freakin' let me wear my hat..OR make a face in the i.d. card pic. they ALWAYS let the seniors do that. its like....tradition! fuckers. they had like...old...people take it. AND the lady that helped me at the first station was a real bitch.
sheesh.

throwback!

hung out with one of my best friends after work today. it was "chill". for sure. :) i love maggie. (the sexy red head in that girl group pic)

here's the throwback.
catch me singing "I'm Yours by Jason Mraz" on Ryan's site.
here's the link to it.

yeah, idk. ill probably sleep now.
im going to the gym tom with phil
then nails with mags
then work!
holler.

fcuk counting.

the damn counter doesn't work. whatev's. it's gone now.

&jenny...if you're reading this. yes, i am mean on my blog. HAHA!
:) i love you!

someone got fired yesterday at work. it's kinda funny &scary at the same time. i don't know. she said she'll sue. for what? whatever. that's life.
doesn't really affect me except that we get more hours now. sweet.

i get paid tomorrow!too bad i didn't work that much recently so it'll be under fourhundred forsureforsure. damn. OH WELL. "I LIKE MONEY, BLINGBLINGBLING!" $$$

but yeah, anyways. i bought melissa an "ihome"-type device to thank her for everything she's done for me. thank god she liked it!

i hate it when people read my mail. :(

this hoe. that day was so much fun. there's my guitar.
btw, everytime i think about guitars and stuff i keep getting reminded that...
KENDRA, MARIE, WE NEED TO RECORD.

my butt hurts.

'cuz im sore from the gym.
it was fun catching up with my bff ashley though. :)

today was a good day. i give it a 6 out of 10. maybe a 7.
seriously, im sad that school is starting.
i have A LOT of schedule changes to make.

hm, i work tomorrow. some bitch stole my hours so i didnt work monday.
whatever. she's ugly.

kay im gonna go paint my nails. peace.
p.s. i added a counter. just for fun.

why so young?

so ashley and i are talking right now &DAMNIT.
i turn 18 LASTLASTLAST.

it goes like
LIZMAGS MELLI ASHLEY ME


ridiculous. :)
these last few days were crazy.
i got kicked out of my own house. long story. i'm not gonna waste my time with it on this. melissa let me bring bags of my shit and just crash at her house. we make a great team. we can get anywhere. chacha helps. haha! we have a secret clothing store that we love....but its a secret. :)
it felt like a vacation. i really love my bestfriends. it's times like these where you realize who your real friends are. people who aren't just all talk. people of action.

yest i came to my madres. yeah, i love her, but she's wackwackwack.
i pay for her gas sometimes. and i dont even get paid back!
anyways.
i checked out shinne's new apartment. it's DOPE. i fell asleep on her new couch THAT I PUT TOGETHER thankyouverymuch!
yeah. i christened that shit.
it's nice to be back in a home i can call my own, but i still miss melissa.

omfg, does anybody remember BBU? :)

the tonight show

seriously, pf changs is delicious, but their service is terrible.
'dem hoes forgot my chicken lettuce wraps. :(

ANYWAYS!
some jobro news! yesterday was so much fun with diego my eggo. unfortunately it was SO HOT! i better have sweated off a few pounds. staying up for 34 hours was worth it though. we got there at 5 am. and go stand by tickets. WTF? then it started to rain...? whatever. we hit up 4 different thrift stores. the first 3 SUCKED but i finally got some cute heels for $8! suh-weet. :)

i loved them. we got so close.
we got into a couple fights over picks. but we didn't get any. :( SIGH! next time, fool. count on it.


i only work a few days this week. so bogus. whatevs.
at least i got friday off. :)

'cuz i felt like it.

:)
&xanga just isnt satisfying.
nawmean?