the beach was

a fucking joke. i don't even know. it was way too clique-y & the guys were juwt playing stupid sports the whole time.

i was kinda having fun but then it just got weird. whatevs. next time, i'm definately NOT inviting everybody. small group are better. for SUUUUURRRE...

i'm so moody right now. its ridiculous. i'm like...depressed/out-of-it/mad. i don't even know. i think i just need to go cry for no reason. haha, i hate being a girl. i'm probably gonna start my period soon or something..lol. dude, but seriously...i realized that i have some of the shittiest friends...and some of the best. i know who will always be there for me..like..the five & b. like seriously.that's family for me right there.
i feel like i can tell them everything. my other friends are great too, but....idk.

i can't think straight right now. i'm not in a clear state of mind.

i don't understand how some people can be so fucking shady all the time. like, it's in their nature to be sketchy. i know i'm definately not the nicest of people, and that i bitch all the time, but i wouldnt screw my close friends over. i wouldn't. as greedy as i am, i care for them way too fucking much.
i guess some people are just...socially retarded or something.
wtf. i'm pissed.
&why are high school graduates still behaving like elementary school children? like, i know we just left high school a few short weeks ago, but this is retarded. and i know guys mature slower than girls do, but wtf...i feel like i'm dealing with fucking 5 year olds sometimes. i'm really not talking about a group of people right here. only ONE person is this infuriating. people say that they change so much over the years, but honestly, i feel like i'm dealing with the same dumb shit as before.

i deserve soooo much fucking better.

like my bro, peeeej, told me...i give way them way more than they deserve.
FUCK THEM. i'm not even trying to be conceited or anything. i'm just saying that i KNOW that i deserve better, and i KNOW how i should be treated. i don't need fuckups, dickheads, or sluts in my inner circle. ESPECIALLY SLUTS. fuck you, you hoes!

seriously, wtf guys, WAY TO LET ME DOWN.

this is definately one of those "i'll probably delete this tomorrow" posts, but i just had to.